+REVELATION+
YES. I am back. I COULDN'T EVEN FUCKING LAST THREE FUCKING DAYS!!!!
Because you know what? I've come to a CONCLUSION. YES. REVELATION!!!
Why hide from this place because I'm sad? I'M NEVER FUCKING HAPPY!!!!
HAHAHAHA.
HOW FUCKING STUPID AND POINTLESS OF ME TO THINK I COULD COME BACK A NEW AND HAPPY PERSON!!!!
I give up. Yes. I'm 100% finished with everything. I have nothing to look forward to. And I DONT WANT TO LOOK FORWARD TO ANYTHING GOOD. Because it just LEADS TO FUCKING LET DOWN AND DISAPPOINTMENT.
SILLY ME FOR EVER THINKING I COULD BE A HAPPY PERSON.
SILLY ME FOR EVER THINKING I WAS GOING TO BE OKAY!!!
FORGIVE ME.
I'm sorry to -you-. ESPECIALLY.
I'm sorry I caused GUILT and PAIN.
I'm sorry I MADE your life suck.
I'm sorry I caused nothing but anxiety and PROBLEMS.
I'm sorry I'm a disappointment for you.
I'm sorry I wasn't what you wanted or expected.
I'm SHIT. on a STICK even.
And that's just fine and dandy.
I was a fucking moron to think I was happy and that someone could ever be happy with me for too long. It never lasts. I'm just a let down a bring down a moody BITCH and a fucking stain on society.
A FUCKING IDIOT is what I am.
And I'm finished. Because you're never going to see me smile SINCERELY ever again. you're NEVER going to see me LAUGH without me secretly wishing I were gone so I couldn't be a fake ass whore anymore. You'll never be in my company without me wondering if you REALLY want me to be there. I'll NEVER EVER fucking WANT to say i love you without wanting to burst into motherfucking TEARS because no one will ever mean it when they say it back. I don't know what ANYONE wants from me except to pull me around and make me think. I'm HAPPY though, THAT SOMEONE in the fucking world actually WANTED ME and MADE ME FEEL SPECIAL. AND BEAUTIFUL. AND WORTH TIME AND ENERGY. but then I ruined it. I ruined everything. I'm not worth anything anymore. NOT ANYMORE. Maybe once. BUT NOT ANYMORE. I'M NOTHING BUT A WORTHLESS BITCH!!!
And I guess I should get used to it. Because it's going to happen all the time. DANIEL. HEY DANIEL!!!! YOU WIN. TRUE LOVE DOESN'T FUCKING EXIST. ITS BULLSHIT. I WAS WRONG. I'M A FUCKING IDIOT. THE END. now lets all rejoice that i'm back and stare at my pictures. HAHAHAHAH.
...cereal...but THERES NO MILK.
PAYCE, HOMES.
yeah, i'm so in your face. upclose look
Made ya look.
duh. ...THE END FOR REALS.
[whats that noise?] chuck mangione :: feels so good | 
